I hear nothing from a district I’d really like to work for and thought I had a good chance in, but another job opens up that excites me a lot! I’ve spent two years trusting God for the job I will end up with and enjoying the adventure of seeing what will come. At the same time, my mind can start feeding me ideas about the unknown – the unheard conversations and decisions happening between administrators regarding the job that I thought could be mine. Is it too soon to start speculating about what potential employers are thinking as they sift through applications and compare my resume to others? I have much education and experience with a variety of students. Is it too much?
I have grown in this experience through my need to put myself forward, push and expand my knowledge as an educator, and become my own best advocate. The fears and inklings of doubt come when someone close to me questions the decision I made to leave my job of over 20 years in the first place. I could have stayed safe in the comfort of my tenured (only one in the district) position. I chose to take a career risk by moving from a part-time secure position to a full-time job where I needed a second contract in order to achieve tenure in the new district. Due to circumstances I could not have foreseen, (the takeover of a public school program by a state-run academy, thereby displacing teachers with bumping rights), my position quickly became tenuous, and I have been on that road of trust ever since.
I believe that God brought me here for a reason; and if, for some reason, none of the currently available jobs is part of the “big picture” for me, I trust that God will continue to oversee the plan while I do my part by throwing myself into every potential situation just to try it out and see where it leads. It may be that the journey is at least equally important as the destination!